sobriety

I dont think I am a substance abuser, but the again denial is one of the stages towards admitting an addiction. since it is let, having no clue what lent is about and who is supposed to give back what after this season, the little i understand and get from snippets of conversation it is about giving up something...

so this is my lent... getting off the juice.



day one... still good, i know i have alcohol in the house... wondering if it counts drinking that which was bought much earlier?...

I guess i will keep updating this... Monday, calm before the storm... hope it isnt that windy!!!


Tuesday

about last night, the bottle was still there and the mixer half full right there... then I got home earlier than usual... dum dum dee dum.... tap tap tap, flip channell, flip, flip , flip... calll, surf the net on my phone, flip, dum, tap, dee dum.... argh fuck it... the drink was already there, I didnt go out of my way to get any, it just seats there staring at me with it's half empty puppy eyes... and when was the last time I was here early anyway... live a little lissing, live a little.

that was that... and then the phone call, and buddy drops home, and carries a night cap... dude! I had nothing to do with this, unless you count tipsy sublimnal messages *hehehe* so what the heck... is someone looking for me or what!

so I am writing this today on tuesday, close to twos day... like day two and I am about to get off work... early agin... but this is because some stupid idiot is trying to pull his weight, in the process, losing me 12 hours of valuable production time, which means for real, i will be multitasking tommorow, in between screaming phone calls from different bosses- I juust might need a drink at the thought of this... but nope.. I shall not be moved!

In love actually lust... whatever! it is a good feeling!

day three coming up!!